Do whatever you wish not others, how you dress up, how you want to look. Don`t make yourself so down at any cost. you are the backbone of yourself. catch out a decent person inside from you. There is no harm to follow any decent book, a person, and any hero as your ideal but should be mind-relaxing. Whenever you will see your ideal you should be relaxed. So follow any of your ideal freely. This is my choice my wish.